Love Changes Everything

Recently my relationship with God has changed. I have no idea how, but it did. I have struggled with having a relationship with God my entire life. It’s hard being happy with having a relationship with someone whom you can not see. It’s hard having a relationship with someone you can not see when all you want is a relationship with someone you can see. It’s hard to have a relationship with God when everyone you grew up loving has died. It took me a long time to truly have a relationship with God because I did not want a relationship with Him. I wanted my mom, dad, anyone but Him. I wanted a family. I wanted the typical Mom and Dad family dynamic. Every single time I was surrounded by those “typical” families, I cried inside. Those moments were the times when I was reminded of what I did not have, and could never have.

Like I said I don’t know why recently my love for God has grown tremendously. Maybe it’s because I am nineteen and at that point of life where you try living life on your own without your parents. Maybe by being surrounded around God all the time, He finally got through a crack in my walls. Maybe I realized life is hard for every single person, not just me. Maybe I lost hope to continue living life, and decided to give God a chance. I don’t know what changed these last couple months, but I know that I love God with my complete heart.

I had a person in my life that I believe God used to save me. Her name is Mickey, she was the light that I needed. She showed me a love that I had never truly felt. She showed me God. Mickey kept working at my walls, kept pushing me to do things when I wanted to do the opposite. I want to be someone’s Mickey. I do not want anyone to feel like I did before both Mickey and God came into my life.

“We love because he first loved us.” 1 John 4:19

Love changes everything. I was loved way before I felt or knew that I was loved. I believe it is incredibly important to treat each person with love. You may be the only form of love that someone may come in contact with. If Mickey had not come into my life, I possibly would still feel like I was worthless and unloved.

I challenge YOU to be someone’s Mickey!