The What If’s

I am currently sitting in the WIWU tv truck at Taylor which for most people reading this Taylor is the rivalry school for IWU. Each time I visit Taylor I always wonder what life would have been if I had chosen to go there instead of IWU. There is about a twenty-minute travel time between them so they aren’t far away from each other at all.

I never heavily considered going to Taylor over IWU but I did consider it since I had quite a few friends who chose to go to Taylor. It wasn’t until this last year that I actually visited Taylor’s campus and became familiar with it.

Since I had some time left over after setting up cameras and all for the basketball game tonight. I decided to go to the Jumping Bean which is the coffee shop at Taylor because I was cold and wanted something warm. This was really my first time where I had to figure out how to get to the building that the Jumping Bean is in from the building I was at. I usually drive to the Jumping Bean and don’t have to worry about figuring out how to get to it that way. This evening I decided to venture onto the somewhat unknown campus. While I was walking back to the tv truck I reflected about my time at IWU and the ‘what if’ I chose to go to Taylor instead. My life would be SOOO different. The people who mean the most to me are those I have met through IWU. For example, the tv station which has somewhat been my life for the past year and a half. I wouldn’t have those relationships which have definitely been life changing both positively and negatively.

There were several times where I officially left IWU yet I still got pulled back. Sometimes I wonder if I would have had the similar up and down experience at another school (probably) or would have stuck through without the pauses which affected the degree I got. A big part of me wished I had found Media Communication before I did because I truly would have graduated with that degree if I could have afforded to.

I know God placed me at IWU in the chaotic way he did for a reason. Each person I came across truly did come into my life at the perfect time. I partially don’t think Taylor would have provided in the same way. Of course, I have no idea because Taylor and IWU are completely different atmospheres that you only know by being immersed in which I have not been in that of Taylor.

I just think about the last year with me being a part of the Com Department at IWU and just how great of a department it is. There is no doubt that I am loved by those in the department and for me, that is life changing because they have become my family.

I think that’s why it’s been so hard for me to figure out what I truly want to do because I don’t want to leave or say goodbye to my Com family. It wasn’t until I became a part of the department (which me who has switched her major like 8 times has been a part of many departments but none made me feel the way that the Com department did) that I really was happy and felt like I was worthy to be a part of something.

This next stage of my life I just gotta continue having faith in God and where He will lead me whether it is to stay in Indiana or move to a different state. He hasn’t lead me wrong yet so wherever I end up it will have to be for a good purpose no matter how close or far I wind up from my family.