There’s Always Room For Growth

Growing up as an only child can have its perks, but it can bring a lot of issues when it comes to communicating with others and being a part of a team.

Last night I worked for the tv station. Three out of the five cameras had the big guns on them since it was a last-minute production, on a Friday. That being said, most of us knew what we were doing without any question. In the middle of tearing down, we were all doing things smoothly and quickly, and it made me reminisce about when I first really worked and how far I have come, especially when it comes to being a team player.

I also felt a sense of gratitude last night. I thanked God that He chose these people, this team to come into my life. Now that me being a part of this team is in the past, it’s even more of a privilege to work with them whenever I get the chance.

It is hard to leave one team and go to another team. You learn what your team needs on both a professional and personal level. Last night, I was reminded of how good it feels to know your team. I have spent hours and hours with these people. More hours have been spent with them than spent with my own family over the last three years. I know them. They know me.

I’ve learned so much on how to be a “normal” freaking being. You’ve probably guessed, I didn’t know how to communicate or interact with other people in a normal or healthy way. I then had to learn how to communicate properly in order to do my job. There were (still are) times that how I communicated and responded to situations greatly affected my job. I know I have at least one post if not more about a time that my communication was affected by my past which then affected my job in a negative way. Here is the link to one post: https://findlovetogether.wordpress.com/2017/10/14/psalm-914-6/

I still catch myself saying and responding to things in the old way. Not nearly as much as I did just a couple of years ago, but they still pop up once and awhile. I have to rewire my brain, and that is not an easy thing to do. Last night made me realize how much I have grown and healed. I still have a bit to go, but I think I could say that I’m a decently, healthy, functioning human being.

I am this “healthy” person because of being a part of a team, and a great team at that (even though I might be a little biased). This team wasn’t afraid of pointing out my issues, and by doing so they made me self aware of those issues. I knew I had issues but I didn’t believe I could change them. These issues made being part of a team more work which I had gone to accept that in ways I couldn’t be a team player. I thought I was too far gone to be saved, but one thing I’ve learned is that there’s always room for growth.

I have been taught so much during the time spent with this team. I can only hope that I can carry what I have learned and put it into my new team.