Life Goes On

A lot of the time when I write, it’s usually when I have overcome something or along those lines that show the positive parts of my life and healing.

That’s the thing about the media, it shows so much of the “perfect” of people’s lives. Though, I try to keep it real, or as others have said raw, it’s still easy to make life look good. Also, I tend to joke and make light of a range of things, which probably contributes to that.

I struggle. A lot.

Recently, there has been a lot of little changes in my life, but put together have made them more effective. That’s the thing about life, it is a constant change. Good change and bad change.

I shut down a lot. I am FULL OF ANXIETY. This happens almost daily. Sometimes for just a few minutes. Sometimes hours. Extreme cases, it can last days or even weeks. Though I don’t try to hide it, it happens because it is an invisible issue.

But life goes on.

We are all handed a deck of cards. Some cards are better than others, but what’s important is how we respond to those cards in that deck. We may not always respond to those cards in the best way. That’s okay. We may hurt to the point where we think our hearts are going to stop beating. That’s okay. We may break in a million pieces. That’s okay. We just need to keep going. Sometimes that will feel impossible. That’s okay

We were all put on this earth for a reason.

If you are going through some tough “cards,” I just want to tell you that it is okay and even necessary to feel the pain that they may bring. Also, focus on the small things that make you happy, such as your favorite show and the new episode that comes out each week. Though it can be hard, even harder when you just wanna crawl into bed and cry, exercising and eating healthy can be vital to your mental health. I can tell when I am struggling more because those are the days that it’s even harder for me to do those things, and probably even more important for me to make sure that I do them. I am going, to be honest, today, I came home and cried while skipping a good sweaty workout. I can make sure I don’t miss it tomorrow. That’s part of how you react to what happens to you. There are some things that you can’t change, for example, the death of a loved one. You can change how it affects you and your life. Saying goodbye to relationships that you don’t want to say goodbye to but have to can wreck your entire being. It can make you do things that are so out of your normal self. Those things can hold you back, but guess what WE ARE ALL HUMAN. We all make mistakes. We all heal and respond to things differently. Cry it out. Scream it out. Exercise it out. Just let it out.

We all go through hard things. We all (at least we all should) feel broken or sad at one point. This world is so focused on putting a bandaid on something that is broken to hide it and make it go away. We have all of these people running around with bandaids on acting as if they’re fine. They aren’t.

Know that it’s okay to feel broken and it’s okay to let that brokenness show.

If you need someone to talk to, I am just a message away.