I Have Social Anxiety

During this time of quarantine and social distancing, I haven’t felt more free and happy.

I traveled a couple of weeks ago right when restaurants and bars began to shut down because of COVID-19. Because of traveling, I was put in “quarantine” at work. I was moved into another office where normally there are three full-timers and a student worker or two. Since most of my office is now working from home it was me and only one of those three people in the office. Instead of being surrounded by at least thirty people, I was only surrounded by one person and he was on the other side of the room.

Most of the anxiety I feel daily at work has disappeared during this time of isolation. This made me realize that I most likely have social anxiety which has gotten worse over the last five months or so. I have discovered a lot of the things I thought were the reasons I struggle at work were not the reasons.

People stress me out.

My job itself can be stressful, but mix it with the anxiety from people and I can be on the brink of completely falling apart. I didn’t realize how much people stress me out until I wasn’t around them.

I have always done better with smaller groups anyway but didn’t think anything of it. I just thought I had so much anxiety because of the personal things I deal with.

I am soaking up these moments alone. Then when this COVID-19 season is over I guess I’ll have to work on this newfound work in progress of mine.

I pray for those who are struggling during this time whether it be because they are alone, with people who are toxic, are out of a job with no income, etc. I pray that this time passes quickly for you and that you can see the good during this crazy season. You are amazing and so strong!!

You got this 🙂