Life Gets Better

It may take weeks, months, or years but life does get better.

There are going to be days that you don’t feel like you are going to survive. Days that you can barely function. Days you feel so alone.

There are going to be days that you are doing good but still, your mind is full of all that is weighing you down. You are still just surviving. You may or may not have hope for things to get better.

There are going to be days that you are doing good. You aren’t particularly excelling but you aren’t worrying about what is weighing you down. You are smiling more these days.

There are going to be days that nothing can stop you. You aren’t having anything weigh you down, or at least not for long. You start to think that maybe life is finally going your way.

These days can vary. You can be having consecutively “nothing can stop you” days and then out of nowhere any of the other days can pop up. When this happens you can get discouraged. You can feel like all the progress you have been making is gone.

It is okay to have bad days.

The more good days you get to have the less those bad days can affect you. This doesn’t always mean the pain or hurt or stressor is any less, but how you respond to it starts to change.

For my entire life, all I wanted to be was an adult. As a kid, I think it was just the typical wanting to be older. Then as adult things started to happen to me as a kid I in ways needed to be an adult. Maybe if I got to that part of my life these adult problems wouldn’t feel as adult-like.

Though adulthood comes with its handful of hardships, it comes with way more goodness than my childhood ever did. A good amount of people will miss the simplicity of their childhood. Where I am enjoying the simplicity of adulthood. If adulthood can even be simple haha. I think it is because to an extent I am in control of my life, whereas a child I had zero control. In ways that control brings a sense of simplicity that I never had as a child.

As simple or complicated as your life may be right now, everyone is a little bit lost. Though many different things can make someone feel lost, we all just want to be safe and loved.

I know I still have some parts of my hardshell in contact. I know because of that shell I can sometimes act like I don’t want/need to be safe and loved. Though me being an enneagram six says that act is an absolute lie.

Life does get better. It helped me when I learned that everyone is struggling in some way or another. Some people are just more capable of managing/hiding being lost.

Know you are not the only one.