Go Ahead And Block Them

I am not usually one to block people on social media. I can list off the people I have done so on one hand. Aside from the random creepy accounts.

I finally blocked someone I should have ages ago. I don’t know what changed in me. I saw on Twitter this quote, “Not everyone has access to me because I want peace more than attention.” Maybe that was it. I was done giving this person any part of my time. Something they haven’t deserved in awhile.

After going from having daily contact to zero contact with someone quite similar to this person I blocked, my perspective on relationships began to change. I have done a lot of healing during quarantine.

It’s forced me to be still. Since I wasn’t going anywhere I could be me and not think or dwell about looking or being a certain way. Something I hadn’t done in so long.

When quarantine had begun my anxiety and self-criticism were at an all-time high. I was about three and a half months into healing from the one toxic relationship I brought up earlier. As time passed while in quarantine my brain began to change when it came to how I interacted with people and presented myself.

I began to love myself again.

I didn’t have people in my life that were up and down and praising me just to tear me down again. It wasn’t until this past July that this person I decided to block came back into my life. They had stopped communicating with me last September. So, for nearly nine months I was without communication with two of the unhealthiest people in my life. Both at the time it being their choice to block/delete me off their social media.

Once July came around and one of them came crawling back with their nonsense. I decided to let them back in. I have always been close to their family and family means a lot to me so I tried to handle them but with more restrictions than ever when it came to communicating with them.

During quarantine, I learned to admit that some of my past actions weren’t the best or clearest in communication because my brain was so traumatized and abused. I have touched why in past posts so you can go read them if you want to know more about why I was the way I was. Let’s be real still am.

This person brought up previous conversations from over a year ago and had me apologize for things I had said or implied. As soon as I apologized they replied with, “I may have exaggerated about what you said lol.”

That was the start to when I began to rethink about having them on the social media platform they primarily chose to communicate with me on. They then later coerced me into admitting something I don’t admit to many people to then criticize that answer.

Once I sat in the parking lot at work crying once again over hating this part of me I had reluctantly shared to then be criticized. I was done.

It wasn’t until about a month after this breakdown in the parking lot that I blocked this person. The relief and freedom I felt once I pushed the block button on all of the social media platforms I had them one was unbelievably amazing.

I have always had a hard time blocking people because I feel mean. I’ve reached the point that if I have to be “mean” to take care of my mental and emotional health then so be it.

I say go block that unnecessary drama and toxicity. I’ll support you! 🙂