Evolving

I am somewhat considered the girl who doesn’t know what she wants or changes her mind all of the time. This heavily became a thing when I was in college since I changed my major each semester. I even dropped out at one point. Despite that, a lot of who I am hasn’t changed. The core of me from when I was a child to now is nearly the same.

I have evolved but that is a part of being human.

The core of who I am and how I think and feel hasn’t changed. The way that I can present it on the outside is what has evolved. I have made it my life to post and share more about myself than most people do. Even with that, I still have so much that I don’t share with anyone, for various reasons.

I used to think I was broken because I can be all over the place at times. I am “all over the place” because I have different things that I have an interest in. I used to believe that I could only do one thing and that’s all. That isn’t the case, despite how different one thing is from the other. I am both an analytical and creative person. I believe that was a big reason why I switched my major so much because I would usually switch back and forth from a creative major to a more analytical/serious major. I now get to spend life figuring out how I can do all of it.

After realizing that I haven’t changed much in certain areas helped ignite ideas and thoughts of where I may want my life to go. It’s learning how to use those passions to ignite ways I haven’t thought about, yet still satisfies what fires my soul. Some of those things have evolved but have added to what I am interested in and want to spend my life doing.

I have begun to analyze all of the jobs I have thought about doing no matter how long or short that my interest lasted. Some which I tend to go back to wanting to do. Like I do with most things, I have tried to analyze what made me want to do that job. I will be the first to admit that whatever I was watching at the time played a part. More when I was younger than now. It’s figuring out why those jobs intrigued me, the ones heavily influenced by television and those not.

While I am still figuring out how to utilize what fires soul, it’s okay to evolve while not at the same time. Life isn’t black and white.